Of course you might, after a good time in oblivion, reemerge in another version of desire, desire bobbing like an apple on a water tank of nothingness for eons, but to your good fortune the nothingness is timeless, so if you rise again, with a desire, it is always immediately after you have fallen into the nothingness. No time is wasted. And yet perhaps you will be wiser for it, as the collected memoir of one or many universes or desire expressions that once perished; you will of course remember nothing, but perhaps you will be aware of something, and in that awareness you may have reached closer to the perfection of a desire different from the perfection that we call the nothingness.
The exact distance and time between the nothingness and something equals zero. The good of all these mess in the dimension which harbors and labors oblivion, is that it is also within your being, it is not outside of it, nothing is really outside of yourself, imagine a lighted match that hides the darkness, you don't imagine that the match has killed the darkness, the darkness can not die, but the burning match superimposes its temporary reality, a reality that requires energy to flash into existence, it superimposes that upon the construct of darkness, the darkness rest underneath all that, it does not care, it does not have any energy to care, and it is so immense with its indifference that it consumes the match, and it consumes the match because the fire from the match fails to fuel itself into infinity, that is timelessness, that is sameness of self everywhere.
I will grant you that it is difficult to imagine of grasp how billions or trillions of years can pass in oblivion and not equal any time separation in any expression, but try to imagine if you will that the expression of oblivion is inherent to your nature, so dying becomes impossible even within the oblivion, and as you rise back into the expression of a desire universe, you discover that no time has transpired because you are the measuring unit that allows time to transpire, you blink out of existence the clock ceases to tick, you return and the clock ticks once again, of course the universe that can maintain a desire expression might still continues to happen, though it is more possible to imagine that time ceases at once for all, you me and the universe, it is doubtful, in fact let me just say it, it is impossible for anything within the universe to die before the universe dies, but assuming that you did, in other words assuming a hypothetical death, your expression will then only acknowledge its conceptualization of time; and it will reconnect to expressions that assimilate the particular conceptualization and complete it, it is the essence of existence to seek normalization of events, the chained fury that unleashes existence is a freak controlled reaction. It is that element of control which attracts desire expressions to the limitations and burdens of existence.
The oblivion is within your heart, if you search into yourself, you will find the empty abyss of oblivion within yourself, it is when you touch it that it petrifies you, and so you explode to connect to externals, to things, to beings, to others, a fire burning from a match has no greater agony than that of suffering the darkness within that makes it shine bright. We never escape ourselves, never, but we endeavor to do so, escape velocity form the self is impossible, we are infinite, we can not die, what dies in us all, is what we try to make of ourselves.
But really folks, how can you hope to make a bird from a dinosaur, how can you hope to make a man from a monkey? If you really feel it, it sounds absurd, but it does make sense, and this is what has happen since we went into the big sleep. But you don’t need a big bang or all those primordial acids to compound themselves with just the right amount of this and that, to create a bipedal, carbon based, oxygen burning life form; what you need is the DESIRE for that thing to exist! And so things, you, me, Leprechauns and the universe, and even the infinite corona, arrive into being and evolve not because they need to be a species, to adapt, and to survive, but rather we come into existence, all and everything within and extroverted from us all, from a wished and manifest desire to exist!
A spiraling galaxy blossoms from a nest of desire, its core bathing in desire energy, flowering spiraling arms extending into the vastness of space.
So the bigger question might be why would one want to be a rat? One could easily argue that being a rat is not a good thing, and if being a rat is indeed not a good thing, then we shall say that a rat has intent desire to be on a ship and even in life, but not enough desire to raise its consciousness to the level of a humanity. In other words, the intensity of the desire to be in life gives you more senses to be and feel in that life, and that very intensity of desire formulates the complexity of the organism or animal that is that life.
Of course one could also argue that it is ok to be a rat and that it is a different way to desire the experience of life, a different perspective and no less given to the intensity suffered by those walking the streets of our metropolis. But if one desires to be a rat, and it is not a question of lack of intensity of desire, then being a rat requires no explanation. And in an strange way all that explains the year of the rat as celebrated in the Chinese calendar.
The intensity of life itself is promulgated by the combined desire that is fostered by those that have chosen to participate in it. These people and things are all connected by their desire, this is even true if it were the case that an alien race had planted us here as part of some biological experiment and pets were merely monitoring units, all the intricate relationships, from human, to alien, to dog, to environment, would suffer an intertwined subjective desire, any character or thing not involved in the desire would soon collapse its own manifestation. Discordance with environment is not allowed, you don’t exist where you don’t desire to exist. It is the similarity of all combined desires that create connections in method and practice, and it is these connections that are erroneously seen as an evolution. But the species does not so much evolve as the nature of its desire changes. Which of course means, that know all you want to know, about the history, the biology, or the physics, but you are not tapping with knowledge the inexplicable desire itself. Any changes that you cause through the use of knowledge, that is via the scientific rational method, can not be supported if the irrational desire for them to exist is not already fundamental in the nature of the participants. In this way, the scientific method can recreate what has transpired more from a desire to do so than from technique. A species does not so much evolve because of environmental copulation and necessity but rather because of an endemic desire to explore another aspect of itself and its environment and more, a species evolves, because it is cooling.
You can, I hope, feel how desire might lead you to love a person or an idea, or even to love and to nurture your own essence; you may feel how others might develop an interest in common truths, and tend to them like a farmer tends to his fields. In that you can see an island like Galapagos as the perfect building blocks to explain a desire, where there is the bounty of life, there is desire, where the coffin that seals the world is porous, there is inspiration.
The truth blurs under scrutiny, approximation to the truth mandates generalizations, scrutiny will only reveal how temporary and unreal everything is because at the most microscopic level, underneath it all is the nothingness. Knowledge is a creative beast but it is a failure of personal character to make it magnificent just because it has a lot of organizational skills, or because it overcomes a lot of obstacles. To enslave thought to the chains of knowledge, where now it is heresy to speak in any other tongue, is a tragedy and hoax, and a hoax that denies the pure irrational desire of our existence.
Irrational desire dictates a fundamental break with knowledge, the world’s fundamental distrust of knowledge is correct. Irrational desire calls for the glorification of fundamental irrational elements, and the emotional exploitation of the environment and the self. Of course the only way out of this insane rational retardation is a philosophical, and perversely irrational escape. You can rationalize what you feel, but you can’t feel what you rationalize, rational is a dead end because it is a diversion from the capriciousness of the emotions and the desires of each essence. Death is the only rational process that works perfectly! Death is a logical conclusion, pure insanity. But any arrest of the emotional is a temporary solution, it cures no long term ills, invariably a person must return to the essence of self or die, and since essence does not perish that will lead to the further manufacturing of turmoil. .
Emotional desire is the default structure of all existence, it does not make sense from a rational perspective, nor does it make sense from the emotional perspective, but the emotional does not have to rhyme. You do not need knowledge to understand the universe you need to feel it, masticate it, fornicate with it, you need to wet kiss it with perky lips of adoration! you have been safeguarding yourself from your emotions which is to say you have been playing bondage with the most inexplicable and powerful essence of your universe. Knowledge is a thrown away tool and Logic is sophisticated reductionism, all produced by the discomforting and inherent uncertainty of our universe; from this fear rose the age of explanation, and it will live until you can accept uncertainty. Until you can accept that you might be as much immortal as mortal, regardless it is merely desire that matters, dead things can desire to exist and do so all the time.
Irrational desires give birth to all realities. A person predicting an earthquake ought be more highly respected than the technology that attempts to do the same. It ought be recognized that technology is merely a manifestation, sometimes obstructive, of a capacity inherent within our personal sense of environment. Airplanes, for instance, fly because we reach an applicable mass comprehension of that belief, a primordial manifestation of a higher consciousness, that is reached through mass agreement. Levitation is not a fantasy but it does require severe concentration, mass concentration requires less energy, but also produces a faulty product. The ability to predict an earthquake, will always be better accomplished by a human than by a machine, which is merely a poor translation of human potential. You can warp reality with perception, lacking that, magnets and metric tensors can accomplish the same.
It may help all to remember that at any given time humanity has been mostly wrong about its knowledge or ideas; the present has a reckless tendency to build its reputation by invalidating the past. Mesopotamia, if I remember correctly, valued its astrologers like we value our nuclear scientists, the Aztecs worshipped some bloody god named Huitzilopochtli, The Maya favored the Sun, a god that, unusually for a deity, you can see but could be bad for your eyes if you did. The Greeks according to us were very wrong about their collection of mythological gods, and the Roman’s which took a liberal advantage of Greek mythology, wrong too, all of them mostly wrong! This is course if, and it is a huge if, if we assume that our monotheistic idealism is correct. Isaac Newton wonderful genius that he was, according to Einstein, was mostly wrong on the reasons behind his gravitational physics, and it was just coincidence, desire and intuition if you will, that his physics made any sense.
It would be difficult to argue that any of all the wars that have been fought throughout history were valid necessities, they were mostly wrong; even warmongers do not in their hearts support war, they instead justify war under the guise of self defense. Surely we could have done without bloody civil wars; but wars are justified under rational ideas, world war two was a rational war, based on the rationalized unjust treatment of Germany by the victors of world war one; and based on the rational logic used to breed dogs, selective breeding, purely a rational concept. Not just mostly wrong but all wrong! And then there is good governance as done by the chieftain, emperors, kings, dictators, feudal lords; but now we have parliament and presidents and democracies. More right? But if we have evolved, as it is mostly agreed, then everyone before us was mostly wrong about government. Remember slavery, unpaid labor, now we have minimum wages, in the past they were mostly wrong about the way they tortured labor. The assumption is, that we are mostly right and more evolved than the past for the past was obviously mostly wrong. Neanderthal man was very wrong, end of story; just like the dinosaurs who were apparently, if you believe the meteor theory, very bad at guessing disasters. For most of its existence humanity has been mostly wrong, or has operated on wrong principles, there is no reason to suspect that posterity will not be equally kind with us. Or if such judgement from posterity is to be wrong we could opt to believe that for most of its existence humanity has been mostly right and doing the best that it can under the circumstances; at no time being able to exceed its potential but rather operating at full steam. Neanderthal man might have observed a thriving humanity and decided to skip town. And in the age of the Greek trauma maybe there were all kinds of imperfect, nasty and moody gods, just as real as the Christian god, and maybe more real because those were the days when there could be plenty of gods, more faith, more believers, all made it easy for gods to thrive; but as the age of reason succeeded faith, the gods could find no soul food, till there were only two or one or none.
